| Thursday, August 17th, 2006 |
| 7:02 pm |
reflections
well about a year ago i moved to dc. august 1st to be exact. i am now in a new apartment with hercules, my little baby having a glass of wine. the same wine glasses that misty and i drank out of back in roanoke. i recently had an afternoon with a dude who shall rename nameless in which we played monopoly in the park. this brought back some old times that i experienced back home. shortly after i returned home and realized how i needed to return to some of the old thomas. the thomas before the excessive vanity and excessive image checking. please note the keywords: excessive. i have accomplished a hell of alot in the last year: rocked out at school now going to TA at UDC for a black politics course, kinda hot got a dog, hercules. went to argentina got a new car became a much faster runner eating healthier expanded friendships and most of all.......loved life i guess i need to return to the creative side......watch out. |
| Wednesday, March 15th, 2006 |
| 11:21 pm |
my life.
wow, so my life has been in much of a tumble lately. its been great or horrible in every sense. my baby hercules is currently with his grandparents at home. i am currently in buenos aires typing this. my friend that i came with has met a "friend" here. here in spanish they say, "summer of love" meaning a quick relationship with hard ending, but great time. so, i have realized that my life is kind of a "summer of love". most men i see are just simple "summer of love" guys. its puzzling me right now. i am second guessing my current state. hm.... anyway buenos aires is amazing. i love it. absolutely love it. i decided that i will be spending a month here in summer. yes, a month. beunos aires, me, and of course hercules. he has to come if its a whole month. so that is something to look forward to. also. today i had one of the best days. it was amazing. i went aroudn with my friend, diego. he is a local here in beunos aires studying dance at a local university. he does aerial ballet, how fucking hot is that. he is amazing, the day was amazing. it is something i will never forget. we travelled from one side of the city to the other, hitting all of the highlights for local and toursists. it was an all day affair. it was wonderful. i really do not know if words can properly explain how happy i am at this current moment. it made me realize how much i need to change my life. things are going to change more now than they ever have before. i am genuinely happy over this. wow, so great. so wonderful. i wish everyone could experience my life right now and earlier today. i feel as though i am a little beam of light. i am in the right place in the right time... |
| Tuesday, February 21st, 2006 |
| 9:12 am |
good times a knockin....score.
Hear that noise? Good times are a-knocking, and you have to be willing to open the door. Are you willing to take a chance, or are you so hidebound by fear and outmoded rules and expectations that you won't answer? jay is so right sometimes. fuck you. fuck you jay. |
| Thursday, February 16th, 2006 |
| 5:19 pm |
kool-aide anyone?
seriously he was all up in my kool-aid and he definately didn't know the flavor. this is such a great quote. |
| Saturday, February 11th, 2006 |
| 11:18 am |
to start my day.
well last night was a blast. went out with the boys. now after a slow wake up and the presence of snow in the forcast i am heading out to brave the day....but not without a little advice. "Look for a connection in a travel location. An airport, train station or even a gas station could offer a chance for serendipity to do its thing. Don't be afraid to chat with someone who strikes your fancy" um...okay. so this must mean i need to ride the bus around the city today...non-stop. hercules and i are going for a walk to dupont...in the rain. he wont be able to play outside for a few days....its suppose to be 8-10 inches. hercules is about 6 inches tall....his legs being 2.5... |
| Thursday, February 9th, 2006 |
| 10:48 am |
insight
RoanokeThomas (10:45:00 AM): anoying idea. Mikey DC80 (10:45:19 AM): its tough... very tough Mikey DC80 (10:45:36 AM): its crazy when we find out what are insecurities are Mikey DC80 (10:45:50 AM): but, then not surprising at all when we learn them RoanokeThomas (10:47:02 AM): haha RoanokeThomas (10:47:04 AM): exactly ........................................ ........................................ ...................................... can we say blow me? |
| Tuesday, February 7th, 2006 |
| 6:33 pm |
gotta love the horoscope.
You are a huge solo star because you realize that life is in your hands: The outcome is always up to you. Consider yourself lucky for understanding your power, and use it for good. You are envied |
| 12:41 pm |
score.
lets just say score. score. score. all in life is kicking ass. just say, score. i love when things start working out. |
| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 |
| 2:32 am |
so yeah.
i just got back from a fun night with korn. the two of us always have fun. my sign is slowly picking up, which is nice. some people are just genuinely fun, and korn is one of those people. someone you want to be around and just chill with. tonight we met at halo, jrs, mcdonalds, and then cobalt. it was an odd night. i was very happy to go out with korn, however, the previous plans were different. looking back i am happy i met up with korn. so, we had fun at halo...looking at men, yes men. halo tends to have men, not boys, which is nice for me. i tend to like the boys a tad older....making them men. however, the last two have been a little younger, please cite the ephiphany of this current situation. i ran into the one before last walking out of cobalt tonight, lets just bid that one farewell. as for the next...we will leave that in conclusion with the statement, as for the next. so...i we went to jrs after. had one drink. i ran into a friend of a friend. wow, i really dont like these people i thought to myself. wow, they suck. yep...so korn and i left. yay! then it was time for mcdonalds. the employee loved us. yes, loved us. i have more chicken mcnuggets in my stomach than any person should. then we left for cobalt. we had a great time. korn met some boy, i danced in my place. i danced my dance, got looked at , and smiled. the smile was always followed by an eye roll as to keep strangers aware of the possibility of death by facial expression. well then korn and i decided to go downstairs. without fully explaining the situation, i had to let a boy know he wasnt cute enough, skinny enough, nice enough, or dressed well enough for anyone i would associate with. this also was followed by an astonished look. i hate people who are fucking losers. yes fucking losers, its like dont fuck around with people i associate with. so, after that small altercation which as i walked away had looks of awe and hostility in one...we danced some more. we then left upon the arrival of a group. we were happy to leave. we were tired. then i walked home with my sidekick in hand....weaving around the straight people and few fags of my adams morgan neighborhood sending a few nasty texts amongst those of good thoughts and love. hercules has an upset stomach...sad. i changed his food to the other type of eukanuba. please note all chihuahua owners...babies dont like the eukanuba [despite the idea that the most expensive is the best]. stick with iams. i also discovered tonight my full capability to be a complete ass hole. i tried to be concerned, caring, and sympatheic. however, when one realizes the full picture all of that can be thrown out. its hard... its just very hard sometimes. life is a pattern... should i continue this pattern, or design a new? hmm.... i have no idea. i am happy, very happy sitting here with hercules. however, it would be nice for another to be sitting here with me. ........... its hard. very hard. time to have the island vote. 9:1, the vote has been taken. sorry contestant 114, you have been voted off. please pick up all litter that you have left. ie: emotional baggage, physical joys, and thoughts in the mind. |
| Thursday, February 2nd, 2006 |
| 9:00 am |
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| 1:06 am |
history is very repetitive.
i have chosen to associate with a certain type of person throughout my life. there is definitely a pattern. hmm....maybe its time to break this tradition. who knows. blah. oh, and i hate to jump the gun. im putting it back in the holster. |
| Wednesday, February 1st, 2006 |
| 9:05 am |
Finished.
*swinging straight hands towards neck"...finished. |
| Sunday, January 29th, 2006 |
| 10:54 pm |
Frustration.
i hate that one cannot determine the outcome. i hate how time unfolds without my ability to decide. frustrated.... |
| Friday, January 27th, 2006 |
| 10:18 am |
so yeah...
1. walking home just now hercules walked the other way. he has not done this until today. i yelled at him horribly. he then turned around and followed up as usual. my little boy is a smart one. 2. shade is shade. |
| Wednesday, January 25th, 2006 |
| 11:24 pm |
masculine.
my masculine side is not evolved enough for someone whose feminine side is overly evolved. |
| 10:12 pm |
Randomn Hard ON
so i just realized. i no longer get randomn hard ons. other than dancing with a hottie, or sitting on a couch with a boy i wanna jump [the most innocent times that would parallel a randomn that i can think of] whats up with this shit? so for those lucky enough to actually have these randomn joys, here is what you do. tell your penis to " "sneeze milk inside a ladies tummy"....thank you southpark |
| 2:53 pm |
Yeah.
so a few thoughts: 1. im working on being less flighty 2. i have realized i need to be more articulated verbally [after a dinner i had last night] 3. can a shady individual be non-shady....or is it truely relative..... 4. i have spoken with all of my profs. today about subject matter and my ability to grasp abstract thoughts [i have more flexibility in my work now!] 5. chihuahuas can pee more than you would think 6. peanut butter should be given to everyone in the world 7. i think i can realize i do not exist in a dream...fuck aristotle. |
| Monday, January 23rd, 2006 |
| 11:45 pm |
Metro fun.
so today i was on the metro...i had hercules in one of his bags... this dude looks at me and walks over from the other side of the train. wants to see hercules. i say no. he says go to hell. hmm...thats a new one. then after changing lines, i am standing on another train. a little boy looks at my jeans and says, you should get some new jeans. [they had holes and tears] a quote from jeremy today: "we are some dressed up snobby mother fuckers" |
| Sunday, January 22nd, 2006 |
| 11:08 am |
Wow...
do you ever feel like you made an ass of yourself?...i believe i do this on a regular basis....what is one to do?...i say "fuck it". |
| Saturday, January 21st, 2006 |
| 2:39 am |
wow...long time no talk.
so im drunk and laying in bed. hercules is running around in circles. yes..in circles. but what can one really expect of a 9 week old chihuahua at 240AM. nothing. so lets do a quick list of things that have occured since last time i posted: 1. i dated a dude who i began to fall in love with...it ended. because of me. because of my view on my own self worth and my knowledge of how i should be the only one in a relationship. i left him, well we left one another. it was a sad ending. i actually ran into this boy tonight at the corner of 16th and U, walking home from apex. awkward, different and not exciting. 2. i have partaken in many drugs. yes..drugs. i have become quite a little party boy. i have backed off quite a bit. i am ready to calm down. i have calmed down in the last two weeks. yay! 3. i have dated many a boy...which i have left. i seem to have issues with dating boys. 4. i got a chihuahua, named hercules. he is adorable. jeremy is his godfather. 5. i have acclimated my body to a higher level of alcohol content. yes...even more now to get drunk. score. 6. i have started going to mass 2 days a week. could this be linked to 1, 2, 3, and 5 above? probablly. 7. i had an interesting conversation with an awesome dude tonight about the issue of spirituality and church. 8. tim and i talked today about the issue of our existence. why do we exist and for what reason do we continue to be in such existence? ...are we really existing? 9. everyone has hang ups and everyone needs to overcome them. 10. its 2.47 am, i am drunk, i have overthought myself for the day, i made 3 A's, and 1 B last semester. i am tired. i wonder why i exist. i wonder why i acted in such a manner i did tonight. i wonder why i laugh on anothers behalf. i am ready to really become a full person. i am ready to commit myself to one person. 11. fun time is over in a way. i want to settle down a tad. its time. |
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